Wow it has been quite some time since I blogged here.
and a lot has happened.
First of as I am sure all 3 of you know, I am pregnant. :)
second, as I am also sure all 3 of you know, I dislike being pregnant. :(
With my weight struggle history, getting fat, even in the name of pregnancy, is depressing. I really don't know how to handle it. It is getting sooo frustrating. Even as I sit here and look at my belly, I am disgusted.
and believe me, I KNOW its because there is a baby in there blah blah blah, but it doesn't change the fact that I hate looking fat, it reminds me of how I felt in high school, and my young adult life.
I hate how my clothes fit, or rather don't fit.
Seriously, all I want, is for this baby to come out, so I can go to the gym.
I can't even really work out while I am pregnant, because I injured my hip in a car accident, and I have a herniated disc.
The only thing that is bringing me comfort, is that I do feel this way, because then I know that when Henry does come, I will go to the gym, and I will get the weight off, again.
*and of course, I love my baby and will willingly go through this for him, but that doesn't make it easy.
