The first picture was after having Henry and I felt like the automatic weight loss had stopped.

I think these pictures are about 3 months apart.

Before/Current

Here is a current picture.

(and thats NOT sucking in. I hate not sucking in)

blah.

My goals are to slim my stomach, lift my butt and slim my little back rolls.

My current goal date is Christmas. Cross your fingers.

Cardio and strength training having been going great. I still haven't weighed myself, Maybe this weekend.

I am also training for a couple races. The first is just a 5K but eventually I wanna do a half marathon, probably next year.

there ya go. There is how it is goin.

progress

I've not tested the scale yet, and won't for like a month, but I am confident I am losing weight.

to me, my face seems like its losing some fat, and I know my stomach is getting flatter.

This is is how I have to take my progress pictures now...

lol cute little guy.

I only wanted to get my face cause right now thats where I am seeing the progress.

maybe in a month I will do a full body.

I know you are just super excited.

ugh

Typically I don't do this, cause its so embarrassing, but this time I think I need it.

We went camping this last week, and there were SO many GORGEOUS places I wanted to take family pictures at, they were just so pretty.

So we set off on a family walk, with my camera and tripod to get some family pics.

we only got like 6 before I got so depressed about what I was seeing that we just stopped. I was done with it.

for the rest of the day I was so upset that I had such a great chance to get great pictures of my family, and all I could see was fat.

So I am posting one of the pics, in hopes that it will motivate me, so next year on the camping trip we can go back to this spot, and take a beautiful family picture.

August 2011

eekers.

I know I said I wouldn't weigh myself for a month,

but.....

I am down 5 lbs from a week ago. :D

I forgot how much fun losing weight can be sometimes.

That was with only 1 gym visit, also. Most of it was just correcting my eating habits.

At it again!!

In two weeks the serious regular working out begins.

I haven't been to the gym regularly, hardly at all, cause its really hard to work things out with Henry. My mom will watch him, but I have to drive him out to layton, then drive to the gym in bountiful, then go back to layton and get him, drive home to woods cross, its like a 3 hour commitment to go to the gym that way.

so in two weeks Henry is old enough for the daycare at the gym. :)

my goal is to lose at least 3 lbs a week and no more than 5 lbs.

I am just gonna start with that goal so I don't set myself up for failure, but my end goal right now to is to be down to my old size by Christmas, so I can get a bunch of new clothes for Christmas.

thats 26 weeks away, which gives me a little cushion since thats an average of 2 lbs a week.

alright, enough talk, lets get to it.

Befores

Well, usually I don't like to post befores, until I have awesome Afters to post with them, but I am not ashamed of my befores this time. I had a baby, my body created life, its entitled to look a little imperfect.

Alrighty, from the side:

Because I am 5'10 my stomach is having a much easier time going back in than most women have, I am grateful for my height finally!

lol k, this is the best frontal picture Jason could get because I was in pain from standing even for 5 minutes and I had to hunch over, so bare with me on the front picture:

Things I want to work on here, my sides I would like to be tighter, and my thighs to be slimmer.

So there ya go!

Here we go again!

Here we go!!! this should be fun.

Well here are the details.

around Aprilish 2010 I weighed in around 155-160 lbs fluctuating, but during the "trying" process I had to stop exercising and got up to 170.

Got prego

Got up to, get ready, its disgusting, 240 lbs. uggggh.

Thats a 70 lbs disgusting weight

So Thursday April 7, I weighed 240 lbs and looked like this:

On April 14, I weighed in at 228 lbs and looked like this :

a lot of weight naturally comes off for a few weeks after pregnancy so this has nothing to do with anything I am doing.

Today I weighed in at 215 lbs so its going down lovely. I am hoping it will get under 200 lbs without me doing anything, because thats where I started my weight loss last time so I know its doable.

I still can't exercise yet, so I haven't really started anything, I just wanted to make sure I got the beginning stats and photos done.

Goals:

Work out 4-5 times a week

calorie intake of 1450

constant water intake

goal weight of 165 lbs, but really its about dress size, back to a size 10(hoping to get down to an 8 though) and shirt size Small and Medium.

Hoping to be 80% done with my goal by end of July, early August.

So if I do get under 200 lbs with natural pregnancy weight loss, it will be a weight loss goal of 45-50 lbs.

post pregnancy plan.

I, lately, have become really excited by how fat I am. lol. I am excited because the before and after pics are going to be fantastic. I weigh more than I have ever weighed before, my legs are bigger than they ever have been before, and I am excited to show people that IT IS possible to get back to your smaller self after kids.

So heres the details.

my goal is to be back to normal no later than 6 months after birth, but really within 4 months.

depending on how labor goes, the exercise will start very soon after birth. no 6 week waiting for me.

my eating will immediately go back to normal, and if the breastmilk goes away, oh well.

from day one being home, there will be SOME type of physical activity, going on a walk, bike ride, pilates, something light.

I will weigh myself on my first day home, to get my starting weight, and then I will not weigh myself for a month. Thats something I recommend for everyone starting to lose weight BTW, it takes a little bit of time to jump start weight loss, so constantly weighing yourself is setting yourself up for disappointment.

So there ya go. I have 2-4 more weeks left until baby comes, wish me luck!

Nutrtition

Lets talk nutrition, because that by far is the area most people fail.

Now, there are 2 different types of nutrition based on what your goal is.

First kind, if are you a semi healthy person, you dont need to lose weight you just wanna be healthier, that is a very in depth complex lesson in nutrtion, so that will come later.

the second kind, the kind most people want, is if you wanna lose 10, 20, 30+ lbs, nutrtion is VERY simple.

Its ALL about calories. Well almost all, its mostly about calories though.

Think of your body as a calorie bank account. A debit account.

You have 1500 calories(estimate) to spend.

So if you only have 1500, don't go "spending" 2500 by eating at mcdonalds.

The other part is there are technically good and bad calories, and as long as your deficit is there, it technically doesnt matter, but its better to be aware of bad calories.

Imagine bad calories as a canadian quarter. You've taken it cause you were desperate or didnt notice someone was giving it to you, and now your body has it, but feels silly throwing it away, cause maybe it can be used one day, so it STORES it. ya know, on a bowl on the dresser you will never look in.

These bad calories are:

White carbs- Don't get confused, we aren't talking about carbs all together and Atkins is an idiot, but WHITE carbs are mostly useless and bad. The biggest enemies is this area are white bread and white pasta. Its soooo easy to fix, just get wheat bread, and wheat pasta. bam. Now you aren't storing calories and your body can actually USE them.

Trans and Saturated Fats- There are some fats that are good for you, these are not. Food companies chemically engineer flavor, to make you WANT their food, and worse, crave it. Basically the trans and saturated fats are those flavors. They are fake, manufactured and not meant for your body, so you body has no idea what to do with it. So to the bowl on the dresser(your hips) it goes.

Hydrogenated oil- This is one you hear a lot about on Biggest Loser and other weight loss shows, and its kind of in the same category as above, but a little different. Its an oil that they use to preserve foods, so the shelf life is longer, and its the cheapest way to do it. But, your body doesn't recognize it. The best way to explain to you, Hydrogenated oils=poison. It destroys your liver, making it so your liver can't process the REAL stuff very well. It builds around it.

A good rule of thumb for what you should it is:

"If you can't pluck it, grow it, shoot it, feed it, pick it, don't eat it."

The key word you want is FRESH. Your body doesn't want things that are stored on shelves for years, it wants fresh fruit, fresh meat, fresh veggies, basically all things natural. You don't have to go organic, although its certainly beneficial, but just go fresh. Get away from CANNED foods, THEY ARE TERRIBLE, get away from boxed food, frozen foods etc. Yes, it means you need to go grocery shopping once a week, get over it.

The most common enemy is this nutrition world that people don't think, Peanut butter. People think its great for you, and yes it does have a lot of protein, but its very high in calorie, which is fine as long as you've budgeted for it, but its high in trans and sat fat, hydrogenated oil and high fructose corn syrup. Basically everything horrible for you, is in that jar. So, for peanut butter, you NEED to buy organic. Sorry. its the only way around it. Try "white chocolate wonderful" its an organic peanut butter that is soooo delicious.

Anyway, I don't know where this post came from, but there it is. :)

Private

I am going private on this blog.

Just cause.

So send me your email, EVEN if your a blogstalker and you're embarrassed lol.

It will probably happen tomorrow.

sshhh...

Can I tell you a secret?

I have NO memory of losing weight. none. zero. zip. All I remember is nightly trips to the gym, and eggo waffles in the morning.

Seriously.

I don't know why, I have no idea why I would block that out, but people ask me what I did, how I did it, yada yada, and I know it was eating right and working out, but I don't remember that period in my life.

I think thats a huge reason why I am so scared to have to lose weight again, because although I know I did it, I don't remember exactly how.

So when I started to write on this blog again, I read all my previous entries and it helped, A LOT. Its starting to come back to me a little, so I am starting to be more confident that I will do it.

But let me give you this piece of advice. WRITE IT ALL DOWN. Maybe its just me, but maybe its not, weight loss is all a blur, and if you have to do it all again for whatever reason, it helps so much to have a journal of that time in your life.

so blog

journal

take notes

Do something so that when you need to do it again, and everyone has ups and downs, you will remember how you did it, literally and even mentally.

losing weight while pregnant

Yes, you read that right. I am going to lose weight while pregnant.

Before you judge me or give me all your "the internet says this" advice, I asked my Dr. if it was ok, and he said of course. The only reason they don't recommend women dont try to lose weight while pregnant is because most women don't know how to do it healthy. No crash diets, no pills, no injections, etc. Just lower calories and exercise. There is nothing wrong with it.

My Dr. isn't worried about my weight at all, he says I can still gain about 10 more lbs and he wouldn't care, but I do. I don't want the number on the scale to increase, at all. I think I have at least 20 lbs of fat I can lose to make that happen.

And before you say I shouldn't worry about it, enjoy being pregnant blah blah blah, I feel like thats exactly the mentality that gets women in trouble. Because then after the baby comes they say oh I just had a baby its ok, and before you know it 2 years later they are still saying they need to lose their "baby weight."

I don't think there is anything wrong with worrying about it now, as opposed to later when there is no excuse.

PLUS, eating healthy and working out, makes me FEEL better about the weight, I am happier on those days, more energized, and more accepting of my belly.

The other reason for this is I want to motivate women to not let pregnancy ruin their image, by it "ruining" their body. You don't have to settle for a post pregnancy body thats all rolly stretched out and plump. Your body has memory and with hard work and discipline it will want to go back to the way it was, with maybe a 10% difference.

I love health and fitness, and I know its hard, I know its tough, I know its a daily struggle, and I want to help people through it, but I also need to help myself, and there is NO REASON that the journey doesn't start with today, in a healthy way.

AND, don't think that I am this depressed person that sits around all day thinking how fat I am, I don't. PROMISE.

So, the goal.

30-45 mins of cardio 5x a week

no more than 1800 calories a day(when I was not pregnant I ate 1350 so I added 500 for the baby, and for the regularity fact)

only weigh myself once a week

not gain anymore weight, and maybe lose 10 lbs.

eat 5-6 times a day

SO HERE I GO!!!

*** I refuse to tell you my weight and how much I've gained until after the baby comes and its no longer embarrassing. :D***

***But I will be taking a before picture, the day I get home from the hospital., and I will show you and tell you the ugly truth. promise.***

so depressing.

My goals, dreams....

After I have Henry, within 3 months I want to have these things back....

This waist...

This stomach....

This face...

This bust...

and these arms...and butt...

Its true what they say, you never realize how good you look til you don't look like that anymore. I can remember what I thought when each of these pictures were taken, and although I felt good and loved the way I look, I still remember finding flaws. I can't see those in these pictures anymore, and all I want is to look like that again.

Sigh, one day.

While searching for pictures for this post I found this one...

See how that jacket fits me? Lose everywhere, arms, waist etc. I loved it. It now fits me like this....

Its not lose, anywhere. :(